Tab Out

Have another drink to numb the pain you feel, fill the void. Feel it in your blood, you become the you beneath the skin...the one who talks to everyone, who says everything, who doesn't care. Doesn't care that everything around you has changed, you have changed, have become something you don't like. Light a cigarette and breathe it in slowly, let it permeate your lungs and blow it out, watch it float away and disappear. Disappear the way you did that day so long ago.

You do it and it feels wrong, feels wrong but feels so right. You're throwing yourself around...you know it doesn't mean anything but you do it just to feel something, anything. What once was has now become an empty shell. Use and be used. You are a love whore. This is all that you deserve. This is all he wants from you and this is all you want. Wash your face and hands and walk out the door.

You betray everyone.